down but not out...not even close

hmmmm...i haven't been doing a very good job at being a blogger it seems. things lately have been kinda wonky and my mom always said if you nothing good to say, than don't say anything at all...who knew i'd listen? has it been awful, maybe for one day but mostly far from it. i've just felt weird or off...it's hard to pinpoint. it's something in my head, something that only i can figure out and work through. i am confident that i'm on the good side of the work through. things are feeling 'normal', more than weeks previous. i really think the winter is to blame. it's possible i could have a touch of the s.a.d but i'm thinking i may have just let the stress from work and life kinda bully me. well no more! fuck you work, fuck you winter and you both can suck it easy. i'm taking me back. it feels good to say that and i believe myself, as weird as that may sound. i'm also going to make a point to not keep things to myself so much because i've learned that it is extremely counterproductive. i have a support system and i am going to let myself be ok with them supporting me, no matter how flippin' crazy i might sound, they'll love me regardless. i received a birthday present yesterday that was well worth the wait and i'm thinking it may aid me in turning my negative, blah energy into something completely positive and creative. it couldn't have come at a better time. so yeah....i'm back bitches.